"Miles to go before I sleep..."

Since my divorce last October, I have been feeling increasingly guilty for not having a job. I've been conditioned to think that I'm useless unless employed in a corporate which keeps me away from the love of my life, my son, grinding away at the computer for hours after the "official" office hours are long over. I was almost losing my mind thinking about what was more important, giving my child my unadulterated attention and see him grow into a wholesome human being, which also gives me unexplained happiness or spend all my waking hours away from him only to spend some guilt ridden hours over the weekend in a mall where he spends time at the gaming machines, eats fast food and learns that spending money is equal to an instant flush of joy.

This I definitely did not want for my son. I did not want him to grow into something I wouldn't recognise. My time off from work couldn't have happened at a better time. It made me reinstate faith n God. So many things fell into place immediately. Most importantly, the life lessons I wanted my son to grow up with, was what I started helping him learn. Each day I spend with him becomes a new eventful journey with some beautiful lessons learnt by both of us.

Now that that part of my life is sorted and I am not guilty about not being part of the corporate world, I can concentrate on so many other things which I was always interested in but couldn't carry my thoughts through for lack of time and energy. I can also look for a job on my tearms!

I'm currently involved in an online business with a few of my friends which keeps me busy. And at the same time I am trying to make a long forgotten hobby of making handmade goodies into a something profitable with my sister. And, like I told my sister the other day, my head is pinging with ideas!!

I had thought " I " was over. But, I now realise I've only just begun....

Love

Sarita